'Cosmic dolphins'

The onion, the chrystal and the dolphin

Anita Boom
Translation: Mirjam Coumans B.A.

Someone asked me if we were truly ‘ready’ with all kinds of issues now. We are peeling the onion layer after layer to get rid of things that seemingly are hindering us. Is it not about us anymore, yet we still feel a lot, and how does this work for transforming and learning. How about the idea that we are on earth in these times to learn and fulfil our karma?

This year in March I was in Spain and channelled Germain in a group. He used the example of the onion to illustrate the urge to transform. With this came the idea of peeling the onion layer after layer. Every layer after layer represents something that needs to be transformed. He told us we peel an onion layer after layer, while we could simply squash it with one blow.

It is not so simple though, to step away from the transforming and feeling of all the drama's in life over and over again to finally reach that feeling of openness and new chances in life. It seems to have become an addiction. Stepping away from it also means that suddenly many people in the spiritual world suddenly don't agree with you anymore and that can make one feel pretty unsafe.

Because where first 'love and light' resonate nicely in your ears, you now hear things like ‘arrogant’, ‘ignorant’ and “but darling, you also have much to learn”. They are blind and don't want you to start seeing. It always feels like someone is blaming me for feeling so good. Getting out of the 'healing' can also make you feel guilty. The others seem to be doing so bad and I am doing so good. When others are seemingly not doing well and I am calling out how great I feel that does not feel too good. Well I never heard of anyone healing by me suffering with them or feeling worse to give them a better feeling. Still there was a feeling of misery that came over me during the last two months. Suddenly everything became a problem. Nothing seemed to have the well known golden edge anymore. Deep inside of me I still knew this wasn't about me. They were also things I could try to handle with all my efforts to liberate, accept and integrate, but it didn't work.

It only seemed to get worse. I had an enormous dilemma. I had decided not to get tangled up in it, but I felt really bad. During the breathing and entering my inner world I encountered a chrystal. The chrystal stands for the whole of stories and human hypnoses, the patterns, the beliefs and the fixed habits people have. I walked into the chrystal and noticed that it was totally solid, but it seemed nonsense to me not to just be able to walk through it. So I did. I walked to the other side and stepped on a platform there. The chrystal was floating in the sea. In front of me a dolphin appeared that started to communicate with me. He invited me to jump into the sea and so I did. We swam, jumped, raced through the water, circled above the water and from time to time we relaxed and laid floating with our belly up in the sun.

Suddenly I noticed the chrystal starting to sink. I swam after it and the dolphin swam with me. We were sucked into the see deeper and deeper and the dolphin communicated to me to let the chrystal go and return to the surface of the water. It was pretty heavy to swim back, but in the end we were at the surface again. For a moment I felt abandoned, because the platform and the chrystal had gone, things I could hold onto in the middle of the sea. And at the same time I felt I could very well swim in the sea and did not need anything to hold on to. I asked the dolphin where the crystal was and he answered: “The sea is taking care of everything that is in it”. That liberated me of all worries and obligations I still felt about the people around me and the people who had decided to remain seated in the crystal. I don't have to go back into it over and over again and show them how to walk out of it. I don't have to keep offering openings in the crystal. The All is taking care of everyone and offers all the people an opportunity to effortlessly walk out of the crystal. Many have gone before them. So examples enough. At that moment I grabbed myself lovingly in the neck and shook myself. Boom! Away from the drama! Just don't do it anymore. I don't choose for the drama anymore! And in reality it took a few hours to withdraw from the miserable feeling and all became clear and simple around me anew.

Again I noticed that neutrality and silence. I also understood that some would think this a boring state of being at first sight. We are used to the enormous ups and downs of duality and the enormous fulfilment to rehabilitate in a retreat centre. The reward of others who compliment you for surviving a rough time. So the addiction is born fast to dive into another peace of misery. The fear of missing anything or not doing the right thing and then missing out of the heavenly blessing is also the reason to dive back into stories, most certainly when we don't feel too well. But we all can feel fairly easily now and feeling doesn't mean that something is ‘wrong’ with us. Feeling energy on earth is very easy because it is abundant and present in many forms. Being scared of feeling something and ‘not getting rid of it anymore’ is strongly related to the fact that you make the choice to give yourself a certain energy and start processing it around again.

Feeling and letting it be is a bigger kind of compassion than suffering with someone else and 'pitying the other. I don't believe the story anymore that I'm here to learn lessons of life and certainly not by suffering. I don't notice I've died, because there was nothing to transform anymore. It's finished, the job is done and now I'm going to enjoy life. There is so much more to live for than ‘my process and my spiritual development’. I enjoy the love for myself, for the people around me, the sunrise and sunset, the movements of nature, the fun things I choose in my life and seeing my own creations unfold in this life. The choice for stepping out of the drama and transformations and stepping into the total liberation is a choice that everyone has to make for himself. There is no ‘healing' possible in that. There is just telling and writing about it. It can be felt in every breath, every contact with God by God. And then it is up to everyone by himself to determine whether he is ready with it. Maybe taking up the courage and saying: "I'll go for it!'. Even though I don't know exactly what I'm choosing for, because I never believed the stories about positive results, I'm going for it!

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